Should I be?

Should I be something different? I always want something better for myself. I am the grass is greener on the other side of the fence... kind of person... or so I feel lately.

Should I be?
Should I be doing something more with my life?
Should I be seeing something in myself that I don't see?
Should I be dating someone wonderful?
Should I be 'just' single?
Should I be childless?
Should I be a parent?
Should I be living somewhere else?
Should I be painting my bathroom and bedroom?
Should I be buying vs renting?
Should I be buying vs leasing?
Should I be educating myself more and watching less tv?
Should I be doing something different with my appearance?
Should I be working out more?
Should I be going out more?
Should I be drinking less?
Should I be writing and/or reading more?
Should I be more sophisticated?
Should I be more wild?

I don't know lately what is going on with me, but I am doubting and reevaluating everything as it is in my life. I feel like I am missing something, but not certain what it is or how to get it. Believe me, If I knew what it was or supposed to be, I would be trying to do it (I am really not a whiner or a giver upper). I wonder if at one point of life I am going to be content. Not chasing something, but happy with what is now. If you asked me, when I was 15, I would have said all these amazing things I would be doing in my 30's (although, I would probably say.... "I would be old!"), I would be amazing, independent, secure and living in the now.

I am turning 34 in a few weeks and I feel like I am turning 30 all over again. I still feel 15.

Am I the only one who is never happy in the now, but waiting for something bigger and better? If you are a person content in your now, what makes you that way? Did something change?