You Can't Pick Your Parents.

I don't talk to my mom anymore. It has been 4 years since my dad passed away (they were divorced since I was 4) and the last time I saw her or spoke to her was at the funeral (before that I think we went 6 years). Most of the time, I am totally ok with it, but the other night it just struck me how cruel she actually is. I can't even get into it here (today) the things she put me through, but I was thinking that I can't imagine having a 33 year old daughter and have no interest in her life. So normally, I try and not think about stuff like this, but this is what set me off. I was getting a manicure, and when I looked at my hands drying under the uv dryer thingy, they looked like hers (I think that is the only feature)... What set me off even more, was not the fact that I wish I didn't have hands like hers, but that I can't see my dad in me anywhere... I wish I could. I miss him, however, I guess that I wouldn't want man hands, but I would like to see some feature of him still to make some of the missing him ok. People have told me I had his mannerisms, his strength, his stubbornness, his inpatience (ha) so I guess that I rather have those qualities, because I know I wouldn't to share any of the personality traits of my mother.

"The September Issue"

Yuck.

I dreamt of the ex last night. Not sure what triggered it, but it was a very sad dream. I hate dreaming about him because it makes me worry, sad and sick that I wasted so much of life with someone who at the end just didn't really care too much about me or for himself for that matter.
We used to talk a lot about music. We both had a love of English rock (Verve, Oasis, Pink Floyd etc.)... I still can't hear songs without remembering our conversations about it. This was the song in my dream last night. It was quite fitting since it could be the soundtrack of our relationship. Do other people hear music in their sleep?

Dear Farrah,

Rest in Peace. You were such an icon and will be missed tremendously.

Poker Face

Found this clip today.... Tiff, you were so right! It isn't about Poker.

Cool Idea

Hopefully, this will take off and come to a Madewell close to you (or me). BTW, I still have yet to go into a Madewell. I think that there is one Newbury. I should go check it out this afternoon. Oh wait, I think it is raining again - so maybe not.

Haha

I want this right now. Dying!

Key Biscayne & Miami

Overall, trip was a success! Weather, friends, sailing, drinking, eating, beaching, sunning, shopping, dancing (go booty bounce at Mangos) and relaxing were all terrific.

Personalities

I wonder sometimes if people realize how phony or fake they come off or if, in fact, they are drinking their own kool-aid and really think that they are that awesome?

Thoughts?

Remind me again to not have another shot before my next tat.

This makes me laugh so friggen hard. Back in the day if you passed out you either got 1) drawn on in permanent black magic marker with a silver glitter pen for the accents (think profanity) or maybe, just maybe, you got an eyebrow shaved off. BUT... THIS IS BAD AND I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING. I die!

http://www.straitstimes.com/Video+News/World/STIVodcast_5307.html?playid=5307&type=World

Miami

Today, in Boston, maybe it will get to 70 degrees. There has been no sun for days (oops, it is starting to come out now) and it is very depressing. I need my Vitamin D... so back to Florida I go. Annual B4 holiday. Look at the temps! On the agenda, sailing, tennis, beach, spa, drinks (those frozen lemony ones with goose), guacamole, LIV, Gansevoort South, Grass and La Cote. So excited...

Jo Malone

I have a slight obsession with perfumes, lotions, scented oils, candles - basically, anything smelly - I want to try it and buy it. The other day, I was getting ready for work and was thinking that I needed some new summery scents cause I have been wearing my rose perfume for a few days and I wasn't loving it anymore. I love my Jo Malone Grapefruit, but that tends to be a bit fallish for me... so as I was helping CD pick out sneakers at Neimans, I made my way to the Jo Malone counter and found these two fabulous perfumes. Vintage Gardenia (description: A captivating blend, the classic florals gardenia and tuberose are combined with cardamom, sandalwood and myrrh to create a rich seduction of the sense) and Nectarine Blossom & Honey Cologne (description: A youthful and fruity fragrance, Nectarine Blossom & Honey is inspired by the delicious scent of just-ripening nectarines and a taste of refreshing peach sorbet. Mouthwatering nectarine and peach with hints of plum, blackcurrant and vetiver are combined with the sweet warmth of acacia honey in this truly seductive combination).

So, my whole point is if you are looking for a new summer scent, then I would try these.

Weekend Fun... Upcoming

Very excited to see Kathy Griffin tomorrow night at the Wang or Citi Pac or whatever it is called now with Noriagi and MeMo. The last time I saw her was in Mississippi and I was surprised at how awesome she was live. I am soooo ready for some laughs after this AWFUL week. This weather is killing me. Downright dreadful! It has rained everyday and hasn't gone over 60 in awhile. IT IS JUNE! I think I need to move.

Tonight I am looking forward to some after work shopping with the girls and take-out/wine and renting a movie with my baby Ruby. Although, we were not getting along this morning. Seriously, the acting out needs to stop pronto. She pooped under my bed this morning (waaaaay back corner) and I couldn't get it without having CD come running over at 6:30am to help me move the bed away from the wall. She is now grounded from my room for good.

Random Thoughts of the Day: Thursday

I caught up on DVR last night. Well, just Housewives of NJ. Seriously, I thought I was going to kill myself every time someone (no forehead lady) said boobies. It drove me insane.

I am starting my need to do list for the KB trip. Since I haven't really been dieting/gyming it, I am just going to scratch that off and make room for waxing, manis, pedis, shopping and maybe a spray tan (don't they do contouring?)...

We are kicking puppy K to the curb tonight. Over it! Going the 1x1 route next.

Does anyone else think it is weird that Kendra from GND is going to have a kid? I saw bits of her new show on E! the other night... not sure what I think about it.

Lastly, has anyone watched the show Hitched or Ditched? My continuous response is "Ditch" on every episode. Not because the guys are usually DBs, but because the oldest bride to be, so far, has been 24. Why would you get married that young?!? I would shoot myself if I was with the guy I was with at 24 (or 29 for that matter). No way!

Sox vs Yanks

Very excited to see the game tonight at Fenway. CD had a work gig, so he had to give up his coveted tix and give them to me. Too bad for him, very good for me. I wonder if Kate will be there?

Ruby

She is getting so big. I can't believe how fast she is growing. I want her to stay puppy size forever...

Look Closely

What is she wearing that I want right now??
Hint here!

Addiction

I am addicted to chewing gum. There, I said it and I feel better. Not really. Why can't I stop chewing? All day long chew chew chew. I run out, I go get more - can't be without it. This is a cry for help people.
Ok, I am half joking, maybe...
I just googled chewing gum addiction and I am not the only one that is battling this horrible disease.

Keeping up with the Kardashians & Misc Stuff

Has anyone thought about how this show relates back to all of the sitcoms from the 80's or 70's, for that matter? There is ALWAYS a happy ending on this show... Ok, so I will take that a little bit of this show is staged...there is always a family dilemma, but it is always resolved in 30 mins. How does that work? Side note: I love the term they use "Bible." I want to steal it and use it everyday. I am going to try.
In other news, I have been watching previews of the movie the 'Hangover' and I am now dying to see it. I literally had tears from the trailer.

Ruby is that bad puppy in puppy kindergarten. She doesn't listen and I feel like it is a waste for us to be there. I am going to hang in there, but I wish the trainer didn't treat her like she was the red headed step child of the bunch. All the dogs are much older, so I feel like it is unfair that she (me) feels like we aren't making any progress in the puppy training. She goes potty outside, she doesn't have issues in her crate, she sits, she paws, she knows her name, she looks me in the eye when I say Ruby look and she plays with her toys like a pro. Maybe I will get some pointers, but right now I feel like she is a happy puppy without the training and I am doing fine on my own. Other dog owners, what do you think? Is 3 months too young for this class? Help!

Also, I am on a diet. A serious one... I want to loose 10 lbs before my next Miami trip. I was just looking at my closet full of 25 size jeans, and now, I am lucky if I can get them over my knees... I am DEDICATED. Jesus, winter was harsh....Tips?

Oh, and did Ashlee Simpson really attack Georgina? WTF, she is a mother. EMBARRASSING.

I think that is all!

Bride Wars

I finally watched Bride Wars last night and I actually loved it. Of course, I did. It is a really good chick flick, but I think I was more amused by playing that is NYC and that is Boston game with myself. As most Bostonians recall the majority of the movie was filmed here last summer (along with the 5 other films happening at the same time). The Plaza was really the Fairmont, Marion's office was located on Beacon Street, Liv (Kate) lived in Chinatown/Leather District, the place where Emma (Anne) had the orange spray tan was the last place in Boston that had the best eye lash tint and the bachelorette party -- I think I saw Nora dancing in the back (lol).

I am a sucker for quotes and I and really liked the end one by Marion.

Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there is also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.

Word of the Day

Bogus. I have used it twice already.